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Thursday, June 22, 2006

Winning Is Not Everything...

Well recently i gets veri easily fustrated donno y maybe due to alot of things ba... when u get older theres alot of things for u to tink about and when things seems to keep ggin wrg, frustration come in.. hehe well so ppl .. tahan wif mi abit okie my bad times will be over soon ba... will be showing some attitude prob at times... or quite freqently might be quite arrogant or wat shit or sometimes contradict wat i say..and veri slow in reacting to stuffs, coz i am kinda lost too... nid to find back my direction.. hehe so thousands apologies if i say sth wrg u all dun like to hear, or un knownly provoke any one.. okie :) gimme a mth times to ttry make things rite n tune back.. hurhur..any way my headache saga has come to an end no more everyday headaches these few weeks ler yippie

Ok back to the main topic.. with regards to blog title..

An incident happen yesterday it kinda affect mi quite hugely...

Well this incident involves 4 person..
mi, bernard, clemence and donghan, ( they dun read or visit my blog one so i am ggin to say veri nasty things about them HAHAHA ...aiya no lar)

Well u noe clemence being clemence well known for his crappiness and kao pei ness hahaha... yest we were doing this military press(or wat ever u called it i not a technical terms person) we were debating on sth den it came about the position i got the last 28km kayaking marathon... clemence got my position wrg, bernard too got it wrg and donghan juz say he forgot wat i get...

3 of my fav junior, and 1 whom i alreadi consider as one of my best buddies,.. all 3 of them forgotten wat i haf got the position i came in i clinched during that marathon.. Its a race where i finally achieve something which i haf trained so damn hard for... its a race where we all not onli race for ourself but to show the sch results.. but... in juz a short time nt even 6 mths they had alreadi forgotten about it... at dat point of time i was veri veri affected by it though i nvr show it... ok den when i told them my actual posiition donghan jokingly say.. really he was juz jokingy say... i knew he was joking, he said do u consider dat as wining... which he means 1st den is consider wining... well... i can tell u 100% i am not angry at all... i am not angry wif them for forgetting not angry for dong han saying such things.. but juz feel veri veri veri sad at that point of time... makes mi wonder y i train so hard for... who am i to them.. did i actually exist in the 1st place?? veri veri negative thoughts... runs... becoz dat piece of junk really means alot to mi although nt first, ntu nvr took part but its sth i finally achieve in dat race...

oh well the moment i reach home.. i started watching the anime Fate Stay Night.. I manage to finished the last 5 series( will blog more about it nxt time a great anime ) .. and go into my thoughts again.. well came to realised dat... well winning really isnt everything, y do we put soo much stress so pressure on ourself..

getting all stress out , running depression, feeling like giving up, dun wish to go for compy coz u tink u wont win.. bla bla bla.... and in the end if u win .. so wat if u win..?? you juz get a moment of pride a day of honor... and a sourveinr which will looks nice on ur desk for ur own viewing... after a few mths ppl will forget. and will not tok about it anymore. even its ur team mate even its ur buddy... the process is really more important den the results. even u nvr win a actual race, u are a winner in the hearts or ur frens, ur teammates ur buddy.

I remember the last ivp training where the fastest T1 rower in np dat time is weihong n edmund, (wq is takin K), dat time my old paddle broke, so basically every sun training i use power master to train. using T1 of course i race wif edmund and weihong for all the trainings.. n well i win them more then they win mi most of the time i lead most of the time.. and during the ivp when edmund won 3rd , n i was giving him my congrates and he told mi dat if i am the one ggin down to race.. the one winning could be mi.. and of course the last round ubin where they cock up jiayings medal... although she didnt get it in the end all of us still felt dat she still the 3rd.. and NKM she fainted, alfred canoe capsize, same for cheng too... but to mi if they completed it i am sure they will win too, so in fact i alreadi take it tat they did won that race...

well i tink i blog mths ago after agm about this kind of thing too...

so well since everyone haf forgotten my position during the last marathon so be it, i shld not say it ba... i will be in watever position u tink i am... it doesnt matters..
Ok its unfair if i say everyone forgets ok , jiaying remembers well maybe coz she wrote tat article for the sch.. and ya i believe wq and dennis will remember it too coz we fought along side tgt during race..

so well ppl a good lesson learnt for mi, am not ggin to put so much pressure on my self anymore ... i will juz do my best increase my chance of winning wat ever i can..do during NCC or wat ever compy i am ggin to take part i juz do my best...well i love rowing becoz i love to canoe i like to be at the sea, i like to go for expedition, i like speed gifs mi a flying feeling, i love to ride thru waves and waves i like to row wif someone i like and i like when theres is someone sprinting beside mi makes mi feel all excited and nt becoz i like to win competitions soo.. well gona enjoy all the rows dats more important ba

Lastly although i noe bernard donghan and clemence wont be reading my blog but i still haf to say dat i am not angry wif wat they say... seriously nt at all :)

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